I am locally very important, globally not important.

It helps that I’m not important, that the world moves on whatever I do, it doesn’t need me to push it

The people close to me, they count on my help. Local systems, my family and my team, what I do matters to them. Failing them, this hurts. It is okay that it hurts.

I want to make a big difference to my family and team, and small differences in the world.

There is a wrenching drumb in my chest today
It squeezes in a nearby beat
Walk with it into a new self, a new world.